Didn't go school today. Supposingly planned this truancy with Nick.. so we both slept really late yesterday night, but he backed out at the very last minute because "Shermaine ask me to go school tomorrow". So he's going to school, being him, sleeping at 1 AM is nothing much, he'd be able to wake up 6 the next day, but I can't D: And it was 1 AM, and I already told my mom I'm not going.. so she didn't wake me up, neither could I wake myself up.
But one person, or dog could, Money! She woke me up at 7.50, whining at me, apparently asking why I'm still at home(or somethin' like that). Turned on the computer.. watched TV with the air-conditioner blowing at me :D Been long since I last did that, felt awesome. Went on MSN.. received a message from Jeremy, "bad boy pon school". He didn't go either, look who's talking D: We DotA'd like 5 matches.. won all of them :D well lost one. Okay we won 4, there was minor lag.. not as laggy as I would be if I played in Nick's room. Play with doggy for awhile, since I've been neglecting her since the examination period started.
Took a nap on the mattress, oh and I was also writing lyrics.. I have a foolscap of it :D It's not very nice, it's not really an original composition, more like edition of a song. I have a first verse and an edition of it's chorus. Haven't ate anything since, so drank a carton of ChocolateMilk :D
Continued napping, then DotA'd with Jeremy for awhile more, until Nick came on. DotA'd with him instead, but kept DC'ing. Dad came back not long after.. he didn't buy food. What the fuck. :/ So I went to cook noodles.. then starved myself for the next 3 hours, playing more games .___. Got really bored after awhile, napped.. again!
Gwen came on, spoke to her for awhile.. Mom came home.. ate BeefHorFun again :D Lol -addicted- Chatting with Jacq now.. I feel like a loser D: Failing Math so badly, when all my other friends are like 80-110ish. I'm like 43. Pathetic if you ask me.
And not only that.. I can't really do much mental calculation. I was never good at figures and stuff.. I think next year's gonna be extremely tough. And I doubt I can take on O'Levels.. so.. yeah I might just pass on depending on the situation.. I really don't want time to go so fast, not yet. I hardly think I'm even Sec3, I just got used to it. And before I knew it I'm gonna be a year older. Time, slow down please? And yeah, I do envy people who pass Math with like 90ish.. if I even passed, like 65 or 70, it's a fucking great achievement for me. I'd be so glad I'd be like —— speechless. And then I'll start thanking my parents for giving birth to me? But guess life's not a bed of roses, and even if it is. Beneath the roses are thorns, and one day the roses will wither. If it was possible.. I really hoped I could choose Literature, and drop Math, or just take advanced English. Life would be so much easier that way.
I don't think I can cope for next year, I'm hardly doing well for this year, I just got attuned to the pace now. And it's getting faster. I'm prolly gonna breakdown soon. .___. So yeah, I want encouragement from my friends and support. Hopefully all these are sufficient for me to suffice.
'll go sleep now, night .__.
