Neutral day today for me, bad and good things happened.
Had Chinese test, couldn't really do it 'cause
it was a little difficult. And also somewhat lazy to do.
What else.. Geography test after wards, was pretty easy.
Probably will pass it.
Next up was Math, MrsToh returned the papers to us, got a beautiful 0/35 in total.
Couldn't do it, seriously. Felt what you would call "inferior".
Couldn't take that feeling lying down so I did something about it.
Stayed back with MrsToh from 3 to 6 going through the entire paper until
I got everything in my head, even when I was bored
like shit and really, really wanted to go off. I persevered and did the entire paper.
Now I'm crystal clear about Trigonometry and Manipulation of formulaes.
Hopefully it's implanted in my brain now, never to leave.
Anyway.. I think Debra's death anniversary is coming up soon. Me and Nick are
going with JiaLing and Eunice. She's probably doing well..
Miss her like mad, everytime I talked about her I would tear.
But I guess that's only natural. Haha.
So.. okay. Didn't have English orals today 'cause our teacher-in-charge
wasn't here today, so we're having a postponed session. Marcus and the rest(except Nick) took already, though. 'Cause they had a different
teacher-in-charge. Hope they fared well.
Today felt different. Like there was a change in my thinking.
Read about Nick talking to WenXiang. I wasn't really pissed off or whatever.
In fact I'm envious how Nick actually listens to him.
It's like, compared to anyone - I'm the most useless among my friends.
They can turn to each other about problems, studies. Relationships. But because
I'm extremely stupid. I'm off no help. And because I've never had
a relationship. I can't help either. All I could do was listen.
And listen.
And listen.
I'm usually the one who turns to them for help, much like a burden.
Never could do much for anyone in anyway.
Ergo, I'm gonna upgrade myself. Or try to.
Don't think I'll be able to instantly, but give me some time. Hopefully
I'll change, a better me than my current self.
'll end here, night.
